. @ Thursday, October 28, 2010
Today I'm reminded of you .
The day when you were leaving .
Take care of your health ,
Do visit us ,
Remember us ,
We love you ,
We'll always remember you .
We heard that on that very Thursday , the 17th .
This Thursday , the 28th , Mr Ong's very last day .
Both Thursday are filled with tears .
I miss you ,
A lot .
Time is ticking slow like snail .
I can't control my mind from thinking about you .
Every night ,
I think of you .
The memories you gave us ,
The last few things you've said to us .
Play well ,
Be a good basketballer .
When I come back , I can be proud to call you my player .
Those words stuck .
It just keep playing and playing and playing .
After you left ,
I wanted to work hard .
But the coach made it difficult so .
Before the actual trainings started ,
I tried my best to do self training .
Weights , push up .
But I forgot that strength isn't what I needed .
I needed stamina
STAMINA .
What's the point if my basics and strength is there
but my stamina isn't ?
I won't get a chance to play too .
I can run ,
I can sprint ,
But I can't run long distance .
Mind over body ,
Its impossible for me .
I get emotional , Yes
But please spare a thought for me .
With all these things reminding me of her .
Why won't I be ?
Why am I avoiding her ?
Because SHE reminds me of HER .
If you know what I'm talking about , that is .
That jersey .
A piece of clothing .
Can bring back as much memories .
I know its pointless saying all these when she's gone and won't read these .
But this is my personal thoughts .
You don't have to get involved .
And no point telling me to cheer up when my mood isn't there .
Face it .
When I do it ,
Leave me alone .
I'll be alright .
I'm not suicidal ...
These memories playing each time i hear songs that reminds me of you .
Tears me up inside .
And don't bother about it .
I'll be fine .
Obviously TIME can't heal everything .
Whenever I see her , I'm reminded .
Forget it .
This is life .