. @ Sunday, May 2, 2010
Its all falling apart .
The trust and faith we had in each other .
Vanished ...
I still remember last year
We promised to work hard for C Div this year
But alas ,
I guess our promise got broken isn't it ?
We told ourselves that we will get top four this year ,
For ourselves ,
For coach ,
For our fellow seniors ...
But somehow , it didn't work out that well did it ?
And ,
Our relations just get more and more strained .
Seems like we're on the verge of breaking up isn't it ?
In the past . " We're a team ! "
Now ,
"Who cares , we're a team on the outside only , "
Our motto
"One For All ; All For One"
Seems like it was only words
but no action
I know ,
I have a bad temper
I don't know why
Its just coming back to me
Sometimes ,
I need guidance ,
To show me whats right and whats wrong
Because ,
I'm blinded by darkness .
As far as I'm concerned ,
Our team is breaking up .
We lost our trust
Thats why we're hiding our feelings from each other
And thats why some of our batch mates .
Have their blogs privated
Because of the fear of people knowing their feelings .
I know ,
Some words and things can't be said .
It'll just make another person either sad , hurt or angry
But this is endless
Can we just end this
Once and for all ?
I'm tired ,
Not physically
But mentally ...
Really , Really , Tired ...
Truthfully , I feel more like myself when I was playing ball yesterday
During training
It feels like it was just a bluff .
Just an act .
It doesn't feels the way its suppose to be anymore .